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A transmasc non-binary autistic queer person named Dewain and his blog sharing stuff from his own little planet ranging from anime, video games, visual novels and random rambles and trinkets and adventures
~He/They or Fae/Xe~
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Naarm/Melbourne Australia
After my last blog being a bit intense I thought its time to get back to something a bit more positive and talk about one of my favorite Yuzusoft girls from the visual novel Sabbat of The Witch or what its known in Japanese as "Son of a Witch" you can see why they changed the title in English lmao
Sabbat of The Witch is a moege visual novel by Yuzusoft released in Japan in 2015 and released in English on steam in 2018
Its about a protagonist named Hoshina Shuji who feels intense emotions of others and it can get extremely overwhelming for him
He then meets a girl named Nene Ayachi who also has her own power as well but at times it can make her.... well lets just say that scene from code geass with nina and table-kun lmao
Hoshina and Nene start an occult club to help others with their problems and to help Nene get magic from the help her and Hoshina get from those they help
Inaba Meguru is one of the main routes you get to play in the series
Her design first off is adorable and kinda reminds me of a kind of outfit I would of worn in my early 20s or high school
You may think at first she is a type that would be bitchy or awful just from her looks alone which is pretty rude to judge based on looks but I guess some people do that sadly but the reality is that she prefers her own company at times and really loves video games especially otome games and games like monster hunter
and one of the main reasons I love her so much is how relatable she is with her fun and silly personality and times of anxiety
the following below is some screenshots from the game I find relatable and explaining why I relate to them it does contain spoilers to her route so if you don't want spoilers I suggest finish reading this when you finished her route
This I relate too a lot only having a few close friends and keeping them close to me and my heart and just like Meguru I also worry about coming off as annoying she also looks so adorable to Nene here in this image partly because of the super cute chibi art by the artist Komowata Haruka who does a lot of the SD art for Yuzusoft titles as well as some other visual novels
Just replace that first line with me but in a transmasc way and there ya go my stuffed animals also think I'm lovely and sweet x3 Maybe me and Meguru could have a fun plushie party with both our plushies ^-^
tldr socialising is hard I feel your pain all too well Meguru-Chan
I love friendships that are meaningful as well just like Meguru and wanting them to feel special or fun in a way I know not all friendships are like that but it would be nice for some to be
Exactly!! Meguru gets it I don't mind having some casual acquaintances but sometimes it feels like those types of people only just put up with me instead of actually wanting to be my friend
Yep!! Don't accpect me or Meguru for who we are theres the door just don't get yourself hit on the way out :P
I think you get the point but its the next part of her route that really struck me the most
This last bit alone especially hit me A LOT when reading this with my friend Kaito back in 2021 during when the covid lockdowns were still pretty bad in Melbourne That line I also felt got to my heartstrings from my own experiences how selfish and inconsiderate I was with my ex partner I had from 2016 to 2018 and how mentally unwell I was
I won't say his real name obviously but Kanji also disappeared from my life completely as well as many others lives as well including his own sisters I may never know or understand why but it is what it is and its that pain and loss I relate too a lot with Meguru and how much it truly resonated in me and how my love for her really began..
Oh.. Meguru honey /platonic I feel this pain all too well even now I'm scared to try again after screwing up so many times with friendships even as recent as last year
If Meguru has the courage to move forward from the pain then so can I and its why she is so important and reltable to me I could see the two of us being the best of friends and hanging out together (but in my head cannon she's around the same age as me) and relating to both our truamas and moving past them together playing video games with one another and playing with our plushies and going out on fun adventures
and how with our special someone we love being priased and loved and cared for like a puppy or kitty
and just like that over the years I fell in love with Meguru more and more getting more of her merchandise on zenmarket and even took her out on our own adventures together such as the new metro tunnel in Melbourne
I also want to mention that Haruka Sora aka Sendai Eri does a great job at her voice acting as Meguru giving her that sweet adorable charming voice she has she also voiced other yuzusoft characters such as Hohikawa Kaguya from Angelic Chaos Reboot
(Art by Yoru Yanase)
and Tomotake Yoshino from Senren Banka
she also voices Kisaki Reina from Kinkoi a route I look forward to playing one day when I get the chance
In anime she was Kubota Shino in Futwari Wa Precure
Mimino Kurumi also known as Milky Rose in Yes Precure 5 Go Go aka one of my purple precures
Great now I wanna redo this scene but with my Meguru Plush and my Milky Rose plush XD
Well overall I am so happy Meguru is one of my favourite characters since 2021 and I can see both me and Meguru being the best of friends forever and always <3 I badly wanna re read her route again I will admit and I want to give a shout out to my friend Kaito/Chris for introducing me to Sabbat of The Witch and how you knew how much I would of loved this character thank you for introducing me to the whole new world of visual novels and moege and how amazing and fun it is
Any pics I will do my best to credit the artist for as I feel its important to do that unless I can't find the source please do not harass any of these artists if any of their art makes you uncomfortable
if any of the artists don't want me using their art please let me know and I will delete/replace them on this blog
(Art by @usagicandy_taku)
I make it no secret about some of my faves on pixiv or the things I retweet on twitter I love sharing stuff that makes me happy and whimsical colorful art I find adorable or fun even if its just cute innocent art
but I do also understand any concern anyone would have for certain pics I have shared or retweeted that may have caused uncertainty or maybe drawn the line a little unintentionally such as these pics below as an example
(Art by Yuyucoco one of my all time fave artists to be honest)
(Art by Drugsneko I see myself as this particular character tbh and find this persons artstyle cute)
But I wanna make my stance 100% clear regarding this especially since I lost a friend this year because of it which I respect and understand why but man rejection sensitivity is a bitch which I'll get to more why later
so to be clear how I see loli and shota characters or I guess child coded characters is in a simple innocent way of these few things
(Art by @htk_2720)
1- I just find them cute or wholesome
(Art by @yuyumatsu_ another artist I really adore who does cute moe art) 2- I like the cute moe art style or the way a particular artist draws characters
(Art by Chitosezaka Suzu) 3- I see myself as small and little somedays due to my age regression and find myself relating to these types of art and characters
(Art by the Artist PoorTrainer of Kirean from Pokemon Scarlet and Violet hes a precious bean)
4- They are the types of characters I rather protect from any harm or danger and just give them comfort and do nice hang out stuff like video games or coloring in or even playing games like keepy uppy in bluey as friends or younger siblings
So my love of the moe artstyle and lolisho or chibi type characters is usually in an innocent non sexual way again I understand why some pics may be seen as sexual or drawing the line a little such as showing skin or in a suggestive pose or whatever else (mild nsfw warning)
(Art by @Tsukimi_Mumi who does really cute moe artstyle type art) Like I do get it I really do but even if that is the case I don't see myself getting my pp hard over stuff like this its just in a aww thats cute way if that makes sense or haha ha thats silly lol
"But Dewie didn't you use to get upset over shit like this what happeend??"
Well I won't get into the full story for obvious and privacy reasons and obviously will keep the person anonymous so please do not ask for more details or who this person is but a close friend of mine I know considers themselves a loli/shotacon and while I was uncomfortable with that for a long time I knew they were never a harm to real life minors and trust me the day I find out otherwise that they did harm irl minors or their lying to me (which I HOPE NOT) is the day they go into woodchipper (figure of speech)
But something they saw which was full on actual csam/csem really messed them up and cause them major mental anguish and was very disturbing and traumatizing for them thats the short simple version of the story and with how heavy it was for them and not to mention how much the incident shocked me as well and how also disgusted I was it really made me realize and put a lightbulb in my head I should of put in a long time ago
Its not worth getting angry or upset at others for what they enjoy in fiction AS LONG AS IT STAYS FICTION If something I don't like shows up I just ignore, block and move on or I tell the person to not share it to me personally in dms if it makes me uncomfortable and If they do actually harm themselves or others especially children or animals THEY GET THE HAMMER WACK FROM TINKATON AND OUT OF MY LIFE ASAP
Honestly its really helped me mentally not to get angry at dumb online discourse and helped me open up more to more fictional things and stories in a way granted mainly VNS but still
I find their art really beautiful to be honest mixing real life photos with animation is always a wonderful thing to me) Obviously I know I don't expect everyone to have the same mindset as me on this and thats perfectly fine
All I ask is if anything I retweet on twitter makes anyone uncomfortable or concerned is to please talk to me calmly about it or just block the artist you find uncomfortable
Now I am aware others into loli and shota isn't always with.. innocent intentions I know some are in it for sexual reasons and of course some art or even in anime aren't always with innocent intentions such as this clip and this song below
(Sadly couldnt find the proper source for this art piece but I think it looks like Chino from Is This Order A Rabbit or Hiyori Shiina from Classroom Of The Elite)
(I hate that I find this song catchy as fuck though especially Bao The Whales cover on this song its a guilty pleasure song I will admit :c )
and I'm not gonna pretend that doesn't exist or people like that exist or things like that exist cause yeah no shit they do and its perfectly valid to find that uncomfortable or feel unease by that or its not your thing, its not my thing that's for sure
I personally find it problematic when anime-style artists or folks who enjoy the cute art-style are accused of being a "pedophile" simply for drawing a minor character in a cute way. This art-style can be enjoyed responsibly without the peripheral sexual overtones. To be clear, if a person has actual caused actual harm (mentally or physically) whether intentionally or unintentionally to another human being, they should absolutely one hundred percent be called out for it. But provide proof that they are actually a harmful person. Don't just lump everyone who likes anime art-styles into the same box disengeniously
although I will say some (not all but some) people in the community who call themselves lolicons/shotacons gonna be blunt I find them super annoying and cringe as fuck Mainly the type of right winged grifter types of people like Rev Says Desu who only seems to care about censorship when it only involves loli or is WAAAAY to defensive of it or just a huge anti woke grifting prick people like him seriously annoy and piss me right the fuck off and those who get SUPER defensive being like and being cunts towards people uncomfortable at the content or being rude at those being polite to them (mainly on twitter I see this behavior) those types of people annoy the shit out of me sometimes its better to just take the L and move on cause its not worth it to be honest especially on the internet
I also want to add some people who are into it sexually could be for coping mechanism reasons when dealing with their own traumas such as sexual abuse or to deal with their own mental health issues or sometimes they see themselves as the loli/shota character as well the same as some people who are into taboo fiction in general and that I don't mind cause their just minding their business and doing their own thing especially those who are queer leftist lolicons/shotacons on bluesky I found those type to be the most chill I've chatted with sometimes to be honest its just those cringe disrespectful annoying right wing grifter types like rev says desu on twitter I find fucking stupid... or actual sick fuck harmful pedos like thewhitebowser who belong in the deepest depths of hell for the harm he caused to a lot of people
Also a more personal thing for me and just my own opinion but to be honest I hate the word cu*** (sorry for the censor of the word not even comfortable writing it myself to be honest....) to me its like hearing the word moist and makes me feel icky and blegh about it I know I can't stop people using it obviously but no... just no....
and now two more things that might annoy some people but I don't care lmao my opinon sorry not sorry
I REFUSE and WILL NOT watch Kodomo No Jikan mainly due to the girls wanting to do stuff with the older male teacher which is not my thing AT ALL for personal and triggering reasons for me and while the character the designs are pretty cute the story yeah no fucking thank you if I were to ever watch it it would be for a ha ha funee lets watch bad animu with friend for the meme kinda thing like what I did with Boku No Pico Which speaking of
I would of prefer if the anime was just the boys being cute doing cute femboy slice of things not all the sexual shit to be honest... NO FUCKING THANK YOU if people wanna enjoy both series you do you I guess just keep it a million thousand feet away from me please
So with all that out of the way
I hope this helps makes my thoughts more clear and out of the way cause I'm gonna be honest its been eating me up for ages its the type of hyper fixation or type of hyper analyzing going on and on in my head that really got to me mentally in the grand scheme of things it really shouldn't and I should respect and understand those who don't wanna be around me because of all this
But due to my own rejection sensitivity it does really sting and get to me a lot
(scene from Oriemo) I get why I really do and obviously I can't stop it but I just wish it would stop hurting and bothering me a lot cause it really shouldn't
Like I said in my blog about me enjoying ecchi anime and not wanting to feel shame anymore (this one here https://thelunarainbow.blogspot.com/2024/12/no-longer-feeling-shame-for-being-otaku.html ) I always fear judgement from others and anxiety is a bitch
But its something I need to get over and let go and accept that some people will come and go and its their loss if they wanna let me go because of my interest in moe art especially lolisho art
My interest in this stuff will always be with innocent intentions and I will respect those who rather not want to be around me because of it even if it will hurt a lot and its just something I need to learn is still enjoy what I enjoy and still be proud being an otaku and not let others judgements or opinions get the best of me I even talked to my psychologist about this and they had no worry or concerns for me enjoying the art I will end this blog by sharing this video that helped me understand better of lolisho art in otaku culture and why it exists especially in moe spaces and how we need to really have better discussions and clearer communications on the topic and lets be honest its just part of the otaku culture and its not gonna go away anytime soon (UPDATE- 4/1/26 I also highly suggest this thread I found by @imalunasol as well that words somethings better then I could regarding lolisho stuff and the concerns people have for it which I will link below) its okay to criticize it or find it worrying or even problematic trust me I did too I still worry at times due to my own trust issues after cutting 2 former friends off for being inappropriate to irl minors online but still (Videos by Pause and Select featuring Patrick Galbraith, author of The Moe Manifesto )
If anyone still has any concerns or have any questions about my thoughts on certain things let me know in the comments below as I am happy to have a calm civil discussion
