Finally finished the visual novel 9-nine

 

As of now I have finally finished the visual novel 9-nine and its episodes 
it does make me wonder how will they do the upcoming anime especially with its different branches and different routes with the girls 

will contain spoilers 

(Disclaimer just cause I gush or go silly at stuff in any of the media I talk about doesn't mean I condone it in real life I don't care what people are into in fiction these days as long as it remains fiction and doesn't hurt themselves or others and especially doesn't hurt children or animals) 

9-Nine according to vndb is about this (cause I suck at wording shit sometimes sorry :c ) 

and it goes by at least 5 episodes and 4 different routes 

Episode 1 Miyako Kujo

Episode 2 Sora Nimi

aka Kirinos fave route and you'll understand why in a bit 

Episode 3 Haruka Kosaka

Episode 4 Noa Yuuki

and finally episode 5 aka new episode being the epilogue of the series 



The story itself can be pretty intense at times and even at one point breaks the 4th wall calling you the "9th user" and the different powers the others have as well seem to suit their personalities and styles  
the slice of life moments I found to be super adorable and fun while the epic battle moments I found pretty great 


My fave girls 
we start with the little sister
Sora Nimi 
who I didn't expect to like but I ended up relating to the most with her silly bratty personality and also fears and issues she deals with 

I will admit the incest side of the route isn't my thing personality but I still enjoyed the story and managed to skip past that part especially since I relate to her as a character 

My second fave girl is Noa Yuuki 

The kind and caring chunni girl masking herself as this badass anime type like chatacter but deep down just wants to be a fellow otaku and chill and be more relaxed 
the way she unmasks and makes herself more comfort with Kakeru the protag is simply adorable and relateable!! 

and also her love for cats 
super cute!!! 

in 3rd place we have 
Haruka Kosaka

The girl with 2 sides of being more mature and serious but also more shy and reserved deep down shes just a shy sweet caring girl with her love for cats and stories 
her and her unmasking kind of reminds me of one of my OCS Amber 
so thats probs why I have a soft spot for her 

and last Miyako Kujo who don't get me wrong her story is still pretty good but I feel compared to the other 3 girls not as strong but still a good start for when you start 9-nine at least and she does have her cute moments at least 

Ren'ya, Yoichi and Ghost I found to be pretty intense antagonists especially Yoichi the more I learnt about him and why he is the way he which is seriously fucked up its crazy how he went from silly cute femboy best friend to person I hope ends up dead and rotting but as a villian he was written pretty well 
Ren'ya  while amusing at times I felt was just kind of there and wasn't the strongest to me
Ghost/Lena I found pretty entetianing and fun at times 


The art for this VN by Izumi Tsubasu I find to be really cute and the way they make the character designs pop up and look really pretty especially when drawing eyes like you see the stars 

The music I also really enjoyed at times which I could see being used as background music for YouTube videos or just general listening 

heres a few of my fave tracks 

I overall really had a great time with this VN and highly suggest this VN to those who love the story driven type ones with twists and turns and characters using powers and stuff or those into stories with different timelines 


I hope the anime ends up going well when it releases cause I have no idea how they are gonna do it will it be a whole new route??
a re telling of the VN but in anime style??
more twists and turns and branches?? 

Guess we shall wait and see 

Well thats it for now 

later my dudes 

The Future of the NikoalaKuma Twitch Streams

So as some people know

I use Nicola The Koala or my NikoalaKuma channel as my more professional side of things with streaming and singing and songwriting and what was gonna be videos on YouTube but I'm not good with video editing for that part but that's not the point 

Mainly regarding my twitch streams

Don't get me wrong

I have been having fun with them and been having a good time

However due to health related stuff such as my ibs or aniexty and limited spoons I have or irl stuff 

And how tired I get a lot especially 

I don't think I can properly schedule my streams like I use too anymore at this time 

I'll still try to stream

But I kind of wanna get back to just streaming when I feel like it and when I can

Not pressure myself into doing a proper schedule or routine cause I tend to keep cancelling and flip flopping a lot

And its not fair on myself and especially not fair on the fellow cool beans and jelly beans 

Streams will most likely be still AEST time of the afternoons or evenings as I am not a morning person 

Just more when I feel like it from now on 

Hopefully at least twice a week at most if possible still but who knows...

I also really just wanna be more casual with my streams again and try not pressure myself on being too entertaining all the time and just chill and enjoy me playing the game or whatever else I'm doing on twitch 

Cause the main reason I started streaming in the first place was so I have a place to share what I enjoy especially gaming wise with friends 

Like we are all just chilling on the couch and vibing 

I was inspired after seeing my friends Tomas and Dion play Lego star wars and how I realised how lonely I was without my friends in Gippsland since moving to Melbourne at times 

And streaming has especially helped that a lot 

But I will admit since becoming an affiliate on twitch I guess I put more pressure on myself and it needs to stop 

So yeah from now on

Streams will be whenever I have the time and energy for them and I won't be able to make a proper schedule anymore for the time being for mental health reasons and also cause of my ibs flare ups and limited spoons in case other things take up my time and energy 

I hope everyone understands this and I deeply apologise for any inconvenience this will cause especially for my viewers and friends overseas 

For those who are still subscribing to my twitch I suggest maybe changing that just cause I don't want people wasting their subs on me if I end up not streaming for ages for whatever reason 

So please keep that in mind 

Again I hope everyone understands 

And hopefully I'll be up for my frogsong stream on Tuesday at least 

I'll update on my twitter and bluesky @NikoalaKuma at least when I do end up streaming or feel like streaming or update in my discord server if you wanna see updates at least 

I just hope I haven't let anyone down regarding this decision but I feel I should put myself first for my mental and psychical health 

That's all for now

Later my dudes 

Porter Robinson reminded me to keep going and not give up

So I saw Porter Robinson for the 3rd time yesterday on February 6th 2025 

The last 2 times I saw him was in 2024 for his Nurture tour and and 2017 when he did his Shelter tour with Madeon

Where I recorded footage on my ps vita of all things cause my iPhone 5c was a piece of shit and would die battery wise really fast 

(Content warning for mention of needles) 

Although

Before the concert I ended up having a bad anxiety attack and a bit of a meltdown 

The reason for this was partly my fault to be honest 

First was the fact I had to do a blood test at the doctors before the concert just to get it out of the way so I can find out what's wrong with me regarding my ibs and chronic fatigue and the doctors always have trouble finding my veins due to genetics on my my mums end and I had to get not only 1 but 2 needles on both arms

Got some sexy bruises from them though lmao 

But it was pretty intense as I'm not always good with needles I even ended up crying from the pain 

But the second and main reason was I didn't have much to eat other then an up and go and energy drink and didn't eat too much before the concert because I assumed I was gonna get food on the way or I didn't have much of an appetite due to still recovering from an ibs flare up 

I tried going to 7 11 with my mum and my friend Sky aka Flutterskyy or Flutters for short to get an egg and lettuce sandwich but they sold out of the one I usually get so all I had was a strawberry yoghurt and freddo frog and a bit of a peach monster energy 

However it wasn't enough apparently 

On the way to the concert area at PICA Melbourne

The hunger pains were getting more intense 

I did try to distract myself at least by taking pics with Madoka on the city view 

However by the time we were almost at the venue a few hours early 

The hunger pains were EXTREMELY intense and I was getting really overwhelmed and anxious that I was on the verge of crying and panicking and having a meltdown 

I thought I was either gonna puke or really need the bathroom or both cause of how intense the aniexty and pain got

It was really scary

That I felt i needed to go home or go to the hospital 

As soon as I finally found food at a local Coles I finally had an egg sandwich and some apple juice and just cried my eyes out while mum and sky kept reassuring me 

Although I was also desperate for the toilet so we had to go a local bunnings nearby to find one 

Which caused me in even more intense aniexty and crying 

Finally after using the bathroom I just sat down on a chair at bunnings hugging my unicorn bag

And just crying my eyes out

I dont think I care much whether people see me cry or not these days in public if I need to cry I just need to let it out

2 staff members approached me making sure I was okay and giving me comfort and even offered me a walk around the shop But sky and mum walked me instead reassuring the staff members that everything will be okay

(Pic related lmao) 

Something about walking in a bunnings where it was quiet not a lot of people and browsing the plants or other random things felt very calming and comforting 

A true Aussie icon that was there when I needed it the most for the most silliest reason of needing to take a piss and then a moment to cry and calm down and take a quiet walk 

I will say my fave stuff I love to browse at bunnings is the plants and lights and other electronic stuff or even other random things 

But we're getting off track

I know what your thinking 

Dewie did you actually made it to the concert

And YES I SURE DID!! 

finally there 

And finally in line I decided to just lay down on the grass and take a little nap

Also got this sticker by an artist and fellow porter robinson fan plushiecore 

Which i put on my screampuffart sticker book!!! Really love their art a lot too ^^ 

The line was making me anxious again However and I got worried a bit again of feeling unwell 

But after some waiting 

Chatting with some random people about Marvel Rivals 

And watching meme videos on my phone 

And some people loving my madoka plushie 

I was finally in the venue 

Saw some people I knew there

And got to chill a bit seeing the pre show artist Ninajirachi who did some really awesome music 

I desperately needed to sit down though as standing up for too long at concerts wouldn't work well for me and I was exhausted enough as it is

So I tried sitting on the ground for a bit

And someone offered me their little my melody fan for 5 mins to help cool me down as I was getting really hot and sweaty

Which could also explain the earlier meltdown as me and hot weather never mixed well with me and makes my brain feel cooked as fuck 

I asked for a seat in the disabled section which for future reference I should ask for in advance BEFORE the concert from now on at PICA as some seats were reserved whoops 

But I'm so lucky I got a seat and I spent most of the concert sitting down 

I will say when I needed the bathroom again at the venue 

This one dude randomly said "is this the boys or girls toilets?" To which i snapped saying "DOES IT MATTER?!" cause it didn't really say whether it was male or female or not I guess I was still recovering and still overwhelmed so I guess it made sense why I said what I said

Plus that guy was being a bit rude anyway 

Idk maybe I was in the wrong for snapping but who knows :/ 

But I didn't let it ruin the night 

 Before the concert started 

I was getting the anxiety and stomach aches again and sweating from how hot it was that I started having a little meltdown and crying and thought did I need the hospital or go home again

Until...

The music started 

The music began and hearing the song knock yourself out and all of a sudden

Everything felt normal for a bit and the adrenaline from the music and feeling the sound from the speakers eased everything making me forget everything for just a little bit and just... enjoy the music and it made me remember 

That's why I love music

That's why I love concerts

That feeling of escape even if just for a little a while

A moment to see your idol and your hero for a bit in the flesh feeling so close yet so far away

It was... beautiful 

It was also kinda nice seeing the tech stuff near the disabled section i was on sitting on a chair it was like seeing a little behind the scenes and it was really cool and would of been a lot of fun and hard work to do 

Seemed like the tech guys had a great time watching the show too hahaa  

The only 2 issues I had with the concert was 

1- I didn't hear easier to love you live which is a shame as it's one of my fave songs ever on the smile album 

And 2- Porter Robinson talking about Leuage Of Legends 

Don't get me wrong I'm happy he's passionate about it and loves it

But its league and its not my kind of game personally and how toxic it is as well as its fan base (and I already dealt with my fair share of toxic gaming and toxic fandoms) 

I love you Porter I really do

But you will never convince me to play Leauge 

I'll stick with fortnite and hello kitty island adventure thank you

Still love you though and the song you did for league was still cool at least 

 But despite that

I still had an amazing time at the concert enjoying all the songs from world's to nurture to smile 

Finally the concert was over and I said to myself

"I DID IT

I DID IT!!!" I made it through the whole concert fine and had an amazing time!!! 

On the way out i took some pics of the cheerleader porter robinson squad i also wanted to make sure they were okay as one person was in major pain on their leg especially since it seemed fair to check on someone the same way the nice staff at bunnings 

I do hope their doing well and that person in leg pain gets better soon

I wish them the best 

It was a long night home especially dropping sky off 

Who also had a fun time at the concert

But I'm so glad I went and still had a great and made it pass my bad aniexty attack and meltdown 

I may not have the same energy as I use too in my younger years due to limited spoons and being autistic and having stomach and ibs issues and mental health and aniexty issues 

And sure it does mean planning more in advance

But I still feel proud of myself that I made it through 

And having the right support of my mum and my friend Sky 

Who really helped me with a nudge to keep going 

But especially Porter Robinson for helping me keep going

Keep smiling: D 

And keep trying and trying is all that matters 

Here's some of my concert footage below 

Content warning for flashing lights and me screaming and singing lmao

Now to just rest and relax for a bit and recover from my big night 

And hopefully when I have the spoons 

Finally watch Paddington in Peru with my partner

Later my dudes

Madoka Kuma's Time At The Melbourne Museum

After an awful heatwave and bad ibs flare up
I finally got out and about with my support worker this time going to the Melbourne Museum it was nice lovely weather too which was just what I needed after a few days at home (Content warning for spiders)

Heres Madoka with one of the dinosaurs 

and even a 3D dinosaur

I love whoever did the art there for the animals there 

Butterflies

Spiders

nuggies 

friend

another friend 

touching grass and moss 

turtles!!!

blue tounge lizard 

Beautiful flowers 

and lastly some photos out near the fountain and garden 

I really needed that day out honestly after dealing with what I dealt with the past few days 
its little moments out and about like that help me appreciate life and the little things I love living in Melbourne and always being surprised by all the new things I see or the beauty of the city and nature 
I couldn't ask for anything else and I am very grateful 
Pain is real but so is hope, and always hold on to that tiny little bit of hope no matter how small and the little things that make you happy 

Hope Porter Robinson and his concert goes well tomorrow cause I love his music so much and how much it means a lot to me 

stay tuned for a blog about that maybe if I am bothered 
later my dudes