Better Off Alone

 

Lately I found myself not talking to certain people or certain groups anymore or just not opening up myself much anymore due to all the times I've been hurt
taken out of context 
or told my opinions or feelings were wrong 
my rejection sensitivity and trust issues are so bad to the point where I just don't feel like bothering making new friends or be in new groups as much that I rather just be in the background and not say or do anything it hurts being like this
I wish I could wear my heart on my sleeve and being isolated makes me feel lonely and sad 
but to be blunt 
I'm better off this way
I'm better off safe in my own bubble only with a few close friends and my partner and family cause idiots and dumbasses online and irl I'm getting sick of their bs 
and I much rather just observe and laugh at them from a distant especially on 4chan in certian threads I browse related to my interests (fuck /b/ and /pol/ though I avoid those like the plauge) 


I'm sick of annoying others and I am sick of others annoying me 

I'm fucking done 
and feel I'm better off alone 

I'm happy to still express what I enjoy and support or rant at times on these blogs at least or in my streams and videos  

but other then I'm done getting hurt
and I'm done unintentionally hurting others 

theres nothing anyone can say to change my mind that I'm better off alone and better in my own bubble where its safe 

its for the best 

Also bothers me a lot that everyone else around me is allowed to get angry or upset but the moment I do its wrong? 

shit just hurts man 
and again nothing anyone can do about it 
Most people (not all) but most people suck ass and its better my bubble is small and safe with only people I care about and trust 

later my dudes