My brain has been a blank lately

Currently recovering from a bad ibs flare up after my dumb ass over ate a lot on Friday...

And it caused me to feel very fatigue and sleepy  and my brain just blanking a lot 

My aniexty seems to be acting at its worse at times feeling like I'm better off hiding way my joys and passions due to fear of judgement or worse or that I'll mess up and keep saying And doing the wrong thing and that I'm better off being quiet 

And also trying way too hard to be entertaining or fun during my streams when their supposed to be chill and stuff like im just hanging with mates on the couch 

It shouldn't be stressful or nerve racking just to stream hello kitty island adventure either...

I dont know what's wrong with me lately but I'm just glad the worst of these feelings are over and I can just try to recover and move forward from a heavy personal talk i dealt with 

I just need to remember i still have good things to look forward too such as the Porter Robinson concert on Thursday 

I will also say the new precure idol show was fun to watch 

And it was a fun first episode and great to see the first time on japanese tv while lurking 4chan's /a/ (anime and manga) channel and seeing /pc/ 's reaction to it that was awesome (/pc/ being precure) 

Will watch it again subbed when I feel like it hopefully soon as I've been having trouble keeping up with current anime lately 

Here's hoping once this flare up finishes and the hot weather stops

I can foucs on more hello kitty island adventure and other streams i wanna do twitch when I feel like it that is 

Finish episode 5 of 9-nine 

And maybe read more angelic chaos reboot or eurphoria visual novels 

I guess it's nice i can still find the good to look forward too despite my aniexty telling me otherwise 

Guess its a good thing I got these blogs to remind me of the little things that keep me going and keep me sane 

Even if it's just cute anime girls

Or things I enjoy 

Or even the nice thunderstorm I saw earlier tonight 

Here's hoping I get some sleep and this flare up finishes soon cause I don't wish ibs and the issues it causes me on anyone 

And the pain it causes me more and more lately 

Anyway later my dudes