Merry Christmas

I've always had mixed feelings on Christmas

I enjoy the warmth and comfort and fun cartoons and cute things 

And silly Christmas specials 

But on the other hand

I find it the most exhausting time of year socially

And I hate the expectations people out on others on Christmas to act a certian way or do things a proper "traditional" way 

I guess my social batteries are just fried after all the socialising I did with friends and family irl

Which was nice but holy fuck it's exhausting 

I tried watching carols by candlelight hoping hi 5 would be on 

Turns out they weren't which sucked 

And also that skit they did with Sammy j and that other elf

Using ai art

And stupid bad jokes

God that was so bad

Although the carols themselves and some of the singers were pretty good 

I'm just glad this big week is finally over and I can head home inside the air con in my apartment 

Playing infinty nikki or fortnite on my ps5 or watching anime 

It was an overall fun birthday and Christmas week

Heck I even got giant uno from my dads brother

Who I wanted to meet for so long and I'm so surprised and happy I finally met him 

Just wish I didn't even these stupid ibs issues and stomach problems and just got rid of my uterus completely so I can never deal with my hormones ruining shit ever fucking again 

Cause it's legit making me fear future social events 

But I'll save that for another blog 

Anyway

Merry Christmas

Happy Hoildays

And stay safe and well